suicide?*

ruin of one’s own interests (merriam-webster)

to kill (oneself) dictionary.com

i have never considered it (too many of mom st. lousie katherine kneuper martin’s genes)

(well this morning i was suicidally contemplating an aggressive Warring risk which might trigger nuclear war/”world war III. … yes, i do have some of dad alton martin’s genes)

there are so many reasons to live:

the innate drive to keep self/your own genes around

significant others!

grandchildren saying “i love you grandpa”

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children!!!

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nature; texas hill country (which is heaven), texas’ winecups, the springs & falls in texas (short … but heaven)

art; Willie Nelson-type music

a quest for knowledge, wisdom, prudence

even a face-to-face love for an inept, corrupt, immoral and unethical politician, preacher, teacher and asshole like donald j. trump … or his trumpians and trumpsters (or trump’s buddies valdimir putin, kim jong-un, jair bolsonaro et al.)/for a crazy relative dad alton said didn’t have any sense anyway/for holohoax uncle bernard kneuper et al.

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hugs

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suicide? (risking “suicide”)

nationalism/patriotism, neoliberal capitalism, transnational corporations

military. soldiers. guns. more nuclear arms.

ukrainian’s taking up arms against russia. War

supporting ukraine with armaments of War …

thirteen thousand-plus nuclear Warheads possessed by a very irrational species

(and the obviously irrational actions by this species of: “More Is More,” MAGA, nationalism & patriotism, neoliberal capitalism, transnational corporate consumption, artificialization, “racism,” hate of skin pigmentation/a different sexual anatomy, physiology, and sexual orientation/language/ethnicity/culture, destruction of sustainable social fabric and dynamic homeostatic symbioses

no matter

after suicide, members of the species will ascend into heaven

what? you think they won’t?