being plain, sometimes feeling shame … hmmm … nevertheless, it’s been a wonderful game!

i am just a plain inept insignificant pablo seriously i do know i am maladroit and very plain la villa aggie buddy jimmy carlson told me so affectionately in 1968 … and i thought in realpolitik terms “you know, he’s right. pablo, you are plain. realistically, pragmatically accept it.” “but don’t stop trying to move […]

Black Lives Matter, Social Justice, and Ecological Sanity

https://www.8toabolition.com/ Talk of real systemic change can freak folk out, or at a minimum result in their tuning out a speaker’s frequency. Many get extremely nervous when someone starts talking about an immediate undertaking of continuous revolution toward actually abolishing sins of War, guns, weapons of mass destruction, military, police, prisons, … and destructive neo-liberal […]

Black Lives Matter: Poetry by Two Amazing Men in Times of Social Injustice and Humans Inhumanity to Humans … and Hopes That We Might Finally “Get It”

Let America Be America Again (Langston Hughes – 1902-1967) Let America be America again. Let it be the dream it used to be. Let it be the pioneer on the plain Seeking a home where he himself is free. (America never was America to me.) Let America be the dream the dreamers dreamed— Let it […]

forty-five … and shame

he has some characteristics of nixon wallace thurmond they were unethical immoral politicians demagogues but they were intelligent they did sometimes truly look out for the interests of their constituency they were decent populists sometimes statesmen … even if they were mostly wrong he is worse absolutely narcissistic, corrupt, and empty of empathy little   […]

1968 and 2020 … and all the other terrible years of truth denial (most of us are relatively oblivious to Truths)

i’ll get out of this horrible funk elicited through coumo’s interview of beautiful soul full Wanda Cooper-Jones mother of Ahmaud Arbery this howling, screaming, sobbing despondence after all i’m a Have, a U.S. citizen white, male, catholic, straight and i am a kneuper i don’t have same depth of feeling the wrenching passion of the […]

hollow words? (paucities of effective action from the comforts of unsustainable artificiality)

i cry out for “REAL!” “NECESSARY!” “IMPERATIVE” short- and long-term sustainable systemic change for a dynamic homeostatic symbioses for natural … for nature … from my comfortable synthetic bubble I’m so snug even smug in my artificial oikos on terribly unnatural Eaarth pbm [ 7 S’s / VV->^^ ]

memories of a place “devine” in mid-century south texas (and related thoughts triggered)

one brown one through some privilege … and tooth and nail … had clawed his way to a huge cigar and a mighty-big-car chevrolet-dealership (my dad and i and many others admired respected loved George Fernández) but for the most part the browns and blacks were still clawing to survive at st. joseph’s in the […]

we need to find a cure for our illness* (there’s a lot of work out there to do!)

MAKE MYSELF GREAT! MAKE MY TRIBE GREAT!! MAKE MY NATION GREAT!!! MAKE WHITE NATIONALISM GREAT!!!! MAKE AMERICA (you know the REAL AMERICA not … shithole central “america” or shithole south “america” or shithole mexico not … those … indigenous those … blacks, browns, and yellows) MAKE AMERICA GREAT!!!!! i am sick we are all very […]